crazy love

Im in awe.
That God could love us so much.
How could he love us?
Pathetic us.

About a month ago I went out and bought a book. Yea, I dont even read. But I went and bought one because I heard this particular book was too good to pass up.
So after bringing it home, I wasted no time in opening the cover and starting with the first page. About 15 minutes later I finished the first chapter. A month later and I had made no progress. I walked by it everyday. Looking at it. But looks were all it got.
What a mistake.

After spending a summer of longing to get closer to God, but only disappointing myself because I didnt think it was the most important thing I could do, I picked up that book. It was time to change.

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For the last week Ive spent time everyday in prayer and reading this book trying to understand Gods love for us.
The book describes it as Crazy Love.

While reading this book Ive realized a couple things. I've been a lukewarm christian. You've heard it said....the whole lukewarm thing. But do you ever even stop to think about it? We are all so obsessed with what what we can do to bring us glory that God doesnt even fit into the picture. We are comfortable with what we have. Comfort is good, but God doesnt call us to live comfortable lives. Its a dangerous thing, following Jesus. The disciples were insane in my opinion. Dropping everything to just stop and follow this man they hardly knew probably gave people the idea that they were messed up in the head. But the weren't. They had an extreme love for Jesus, and for people. A crazy kind of love.
I want this crazy kind of love.
and when I dont want it, I want to want it.

We are called by the Creator to represent love.
The creator! The one who created nitrogen, and pine needles....galaxies and E-minor.

Its a serious thing. Love is.

"Like a weaned child with its mother, like a weaned child is my soul within me."
Ps. 131:2

just a thought

I'm glad there's not gonna be anger in heaven. Cause I think everyone would be after Adam and Eve.

he loves us, more than the dad from LOST.

you know, I just dont understand.
Gods love.
I want to. But I dont think its possible.

Ive been reminded of how much God loves us through watching LOST.
yea, go ahead and laugh. but I have. ok?

One of the guys gets his son taken away from him during the show and goes crazy trying to get him back. In the end he puts himself in danger, betrays his friends, and kills someone. Just to get his son back.

That father really loved his son.

Our Father really loves us.

He went through worse than the LOST father, not just to save us, but just to give us the choice of whether or not we will accept what he has to give.

all of that just to give us a choice?
its not like we have to accept.
we dont have to.

why?

because he loves us.

I accept.

try and wrap your brain around that.
its sorda hard.

you'll know.

We all fail.
and its ok.
thats the beauty of it.
I belong to a God who will pick me up when I fall...over and over again.

you'll know when you've gone to far.
you'll know when to come back.
you'll know.

and thats ok.

I guess I didnt want to admit it.

People change. For the better. For the worse. People change.

Its hard watching those you love disperse into the world, becoming who they want to be...who they are meant to be. I dont want the change. But I know its what I should accept. I have accepted it.

I have watched God use me, so I want God to use my friends in every way. Whether it be using them in weaverville, or across the world. I don't mind anymore.

Im proud of you.

in every way.

The world is ours to love.

To show love to.

So go out and love.

You never lose friends you love. You never say goodbye.

People are changing.

I am changing.

You are changing.

and thats ok.