My life is a mess.

My life is a mess. But thats the beauty of it. For the last month or so Ive been dealing with my identity in this world and who and what God is calling me to do. Its possibly been one of the most stressful times for me personally. Maybe its not been horrible looking from other peoples points of view, but its been really tough for me. Luckily, I have some pretty amazing friends and family who have been helping me through it. Through all the chaos of money, (which I have decided is Satan in paper form) I have been asking myself these same questions almost every minute of every day. Who am I? What is my purpose? What does God want me to be doing? Well let me tell you one thing, I'm here to serve and please my savior. You know, the one who died for the sins of man. Im not perfect, and my relationship with God is FAR from good. But God is here to fix broken lives. Not sit and judge them. My problem: Im stubborn. I don't want to listen to things around me and I ALWAYS have the right answers. Oh how wrong I am. My eyes have been opened. Im not right, and when Im not serving God, my master, I am not going to be happy. Ultimately, we as Christians are here to serve our living Savior. Through that, our lives will fall into place. Our wants will no longer be important and our needs will be supplied. Our passions will be revealed and will be driven by a desire to serve our living God! I would like to encourage anyone that may read this blog by saying that God is ALWAYS there. We might not feel it, but he is! If you are his, you are eternally attached to him. He will never abandon you and when you feel like you may be alone, he is right there, holding your hand. Take a second. Breathe. Feel the spirit. Psalms 31:20 "You hide them in the shelter of your presence, Safe from those who conspire against them. You shelter them in your presence, far from accusing tongues" I like tho think sometimes we try to walk out of that "shelter." Its a disaster and I like the shelter. There's no reason to leave. To sum it up. When the eyes are on God, everything will be ok. Be encouraged. God doesnt ever leave. His presence is good. Really good.