char-tar.

Im more than happy to be back.
To see all these faces
To have more deep talks
To stay up until 3 a.m.
To be on my own.

I hear all this talk about how sophomore year is ridiculous and everyone changes.
I dont know what to expect.
I dont know how I'll handle all this change.

We'll see.

show love. be love.

and its over.

Summer comes to an end.
It happened fast.
But I wanted it that way.

I can honestly say that this has been by far one of the worst summers.
Aside from the random trips to see friends and my awesome job as sandwich maker, Ive done alot of nothing.
This summer has tested me in a lot of ways.
Ive passed. Ive failed.
Failed more than passed I think.
But I have definitely learned from those failures. A realization has been made that I cant do life on my own. I need Jesus more than anything else.
Being more sensitive to his voice is one thing that has been pounded into my brain repetitively over these last two months.
We all have our conscious. You know, that voice that says when youre doing something completely stupid. Then there's the voice of God.
Alot of times I give the excuse that its just my conscious telling me what to do, so I ignore it. But its God. How pathetic am I?
We are pathetic.
Without God we are nothing.
So you might as well start listening to him.
Life will be better.

School starts in 2 days.
I will be more bold, more outspoken, and more comfortable with my christianity.
I will love.

I am not my own.
For I have been made new.

that guy

I feel like that guy alot of the time.
you know...that guy.
The one that doesn't really get invited to things but sorda tries to invite himself...and no one really cares if youre there or not.
that guy.